That's me. The picture above. (Not literally, more like metaphorically)
The best part about this blog I'm sitting down to write, is I seriously don't have the time to be doing it. I needed to do it. Just like I needed to literally Google scripture that would offer me words of encouragement on my chaotic life.
Second best part of this blog is that I LOVE CHAOS. I love being busy. I love not having down time to have idle hands. In fact, you guys I cannot have idle hands. When I do, I begin to fail. I had idle hands all summer long. I quit my job at Nordstrom end of June so that I could put all my attention into studying for and passing my state licensing insurance exam. (Ps. I'm totally the new Jake from State Farm, Get at me for quotes if you're a Michigan resident lol) What a terrible idea that was, like seriously... what in the world was I thinking? Don't get me wrong, I devoted a lot of my time and energy to studying for the exam, but I totally could have devoted a lot more and gotten it done quicker. I will say I had an extremely relaxing summer and definitely enjoyed my time with my well deserving 7 year old boy!
If you haven't grasped this yet, I HAVE TERRIBLE ANXIETY. Like woah Nelly, take a chill pill. I used to take chill pills, but I quit taking them I think like two years ago because I like to think I can handle myself. That could possibly be a complete myth, but I know if I can't handle myself, that Jesus dude sure does have my back.
Towards the end of July I was seriously loosing my mind. I don't do well with time on my hands. An anxious mind with time to be anxious?!?! Oh goodness it was horrible, I was creating problems in my own head. I was getting upset with people who meant the most to me for reasons that I couldn't even understand myself! I didn't get back to work until the 3rd week in August... HA! Let me just tell you I was just begging for the busy days I knew that laid ahead of me.
So now here we are, 2nd week of (full week) September, and I'm so busy I can barely see straight. It looks like this; Work Monday-Friday typically 9am-5pm. School for me, one online Biology class (sheer stupidity on my part) and one Math class two days a week for two hours. School for Grant obviously doing 2nd grader things, Grant has soccer two days a week after school (today was the first day of practice and this rookie soccer mom forgot to pack shorts and had to leave work early to bring my son who was wearing a black shirt and jeans short to practice in). I recently quit smoking and so I'm doing a crossfit challenge at a local gym where I am expected to attend at least 3 classes weekly. I am an avid volunteer in the children's ministry at the church I attend on the weekends. I have my first Biology quiz that I have to go to the school to take sometime between the 15th and 19th, (PS I was going to drop this class so my book is still in the mail... I've been doing all my labs, studying and smaller online quizzes based off from powerpoint highlighting our material.) So that book should be here any day, then I will spend my weekend reading the first four chapters or so of that and cramming for my quiz I need to take Monday after work and soccer! Are you dizzy yet?
So as I'm sitting here laughing to myself with how busy my life seems to be, I slack my way onto the book of face and see that the church I attend posted about this leadership class that starts this week.
I registered for that class over a month ago.
I was instantly like, "Well ok, totes not going to be able to make it to that." But I stopped, took a deep breath, googled some verses on a busy lifestyle... and decided to just tell you all how busy I am!
Ok... I'm totally going to that class this week and the next three weeks it's going on. And I am so stinking excited about it!!! I refuse to put my next steps with God on the back burner of my life. Our church series right now is called 'Your but is too big' and it was perfect timing for me. You can make up all the excuses in the world to not make the time to devote to the Lord; at the end of the day you're failing that relationship. Because as with any relationship it takes dedication, accountability, love, trust... etc. I hear a lot of people say they don't have to go to church to have a relationship with God. And they're right, you don't. But it's about holding yourself accountable. It's about taking that ONE HOUR out of your whole week to go and devote your time to him. To sit back and reflect on your life and your week and just be in Sabbath.
I take my next steps with God to hold myself accountable. Not because he doesn't love me either way.
"And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up." -Galatians 6:9
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