What should I be doing right now?
Sleeping duh… but I seriously think I have to start really
getting back to writing to you all when exactly I feel like I have something to
say. I have found myself so many times being like, “ok tomorrow in-between this
time and this time you’re going to write a blog Emily.” What a joke. I like to
think I can plan everything step by step… I’m working on it geesh!
Blah blah blah Em.
Tonight I went to a small group for the very first time
through my church. Yep, I said it… FIRST TIME EVER! What in the actual heck
right?! Hey now, focus back on your plank not mine ;) Regardless of when I
should have done it, I did it. And let me tell you just how STINKIN AMAZING it
was!!! To sit in a living room with people who are like minded in ways,
spiritually… People who also want to intentionally live their lives for God.
That my friends is the good stuff.
I’m sure most new people sit quietly in the corner not
talking, sharing, or answering questions. Not this girl. At one point I was
literally thinking, “Wow they’re probably like this new girl is going to never
stop talking.” For those of you who know me, you are totally not surprised. Such
a blabber mouth this one… I love it! I love talking. Not only do I love talking, but
I love talking about God. I love talking about my life and how I involve God in
it, how I can work on involving him more, how I try to intentionally live my
life in a way that honors him. I haven’t any shame in sitting in a room of
strangers and telling them about my mistakes. I don’t let those mistakes define
me. And when you are living your life intentionally for God, constantly focused
on moving forward never stagnant, THAT is what matters.
I fail quite often as a mom, as a Christian, as a friend, as
a loved one. That’s the beauty of that Jesus dude. You can fall and get back
up, fall and get back up, fall and get back up. Each and every time he will be
there to help you stand again. I haven’t been living as intentionally as I should
be. I really lost sight of my daily devotion time I was doing so well at. Funny
how I also have lost a lot of inspiration to write too… It goes very hand in
hand for me.
I’ll end today with telling you my commitment is to work on writing
more often. To get back into my daily devotions. To keep living more
intentionally every day. As always… I’m here, always here if you need me.
This is a little tid bit from a book I’ve been reading. I
highly suggest the read.
“No one can change their yesterdays, no matter
how terrible they may have been. Update your life. This is now, not then. I
pray for your courage to endure what you cannot change. Completely remodel the
things that you can, and tell the rest of it to go play in traffic!”
The Lady, Her Lover, and Her Lord by T.D. Jakes
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